I wish.

One
Two
More than two.
So many more times
I should’ve called you.
I’m deleting your number
coz now it’s the truth
you’re gone and it’s something
that I can’t undo

One
Two
Two people lost
Two people too many
for my heart to bear
I wonder if you knew
I cared
But is that still true
If I was never there
and now I can’t ask you
your eyes are a blank stare
I waited too long
and now it’s unfair
like
one
two.
One
Two
That should be your heart
that I can hear
that should be you
standing near
talking here
the heartbeat is still:
man’s greatest fear

One
Two
Too
much.
Nothing I say is enough.
Nothing I write will bring back the feel
of your touch.
No words I can use
My head in my hands
and I weep, for finally I understand
that I will never understand
why.

One. Two.
The tears I cry
fill space that my heart cannot occupy, one, two,
I
have one too many questions
why.
Why…
I turn it over and over in my head
Wondering how it was not something else
instead
Wondering ifreally, this was the time
intended
How I could have prevented
How this story ended
ended.
Your story
like one
two many
One
Two
things I need to accept:
The living of life leaves no room for regret
and you need to grab all the happiness you can get

I don’t pretend to know all the answers
I don’t know where you are
but every time look to the sky
I’ll see
your one
two
stars.
Stars in the sky
Stars in my heart.
One.
Two.

For a while, with the vertigo cured, we were alive — we were pure.
The void took the shape of all that you were,
and things get bent into shape…
Return.
You were supposed to grow old. Reckless, unfrightened, and old,
you were supposed to grow old.
Return. You were supposed to return.
-OK Go

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